ive been ashamed..

What fruit had ye then in those things whereof ye are now ashamed? for the end of those things is death. Romans 6:21

those things of which now - i am ashamed.

what things could those be?

the drugs, the drinking, the tattoo's, the lasciviousness.. those things i am surely ashamed of now - and then, what fruit did i gain? what void did they fill? what happiness did they bring? the end of those things only brought me into death, eternal death. a living death! i was alive. i was breathing. i could walk and talk. but i was dead. my soul was dead. my heart was calloused & stone. i was dead in sin.

and a strange thought is - i didnt know i was dead until i became alive! alive in Christ. and the change was so real, so undeniable. such a grand and glorious feeling! (btw thats a hymn song)

but now being made free from sin, and become servants to God, ye have your fruit unto holiness and the end everlasting life. Romans 6:22